Xoxo

I am so happy that a lot of my friends responded to the note I published on facebook. The note is all about the last entry here (the one below this entry). And even if only a few commented, I'm so sure that most of them saw/read it and still praying that all of them would take time to read and really dig deep into their hearts that all its wanting is Jesus ♥

Anyways, I got a call from my aunt today who works from Bank of America. I appreciate her really working her butt off just to get me in and work for BOA. But, it's not up to me.. I'm seriously leaving this all to God. Wherever God wants me to work and whatever God thinks what's best for me.. that's all I care about and I'm going to that.

I miss my darling Neo :( I want him in my arms again. I want to play with him. That little shih tzu of mine is really really spoiled. He's the baby of our family. I love him to death. :):) I'm planning on shipping him here in the US. Or, better yet, I'll just go home! lol

Lord, take over! xoxo

True Christian

I had an awesome day today with Val. We totally walked around the city and just pretty much being productive. :) Will show pics later. I love San Francisco.. you will really meet extreme people--good and bad ones! There's definitely the firsts for everything.

Last Sunday, my mom and I went to church. I learned a lot of things and I wrote them down so I won't forget. The message was definitely a hit.

1. Your disappointments are God's appointments to something BIG and BEST!
2. God wants to do a job with you!
3. When God closes a door, He definitely knows how to open another one.
4. God can turn your liability into an asset to help somebody.
5. God is worthy to be praised!
6. What we're going through is a chance to see that God is BIG and GRAND!
7. How will you know if God can solve a problem if you never had one?
8. What can't God do?

Whatever I've been through, I will rejoice in the Lord.
Whatever I'm going through, I will rejoice in the Lord.
Whatever I'm going to go through, I will rejoice in the Lord.
Joy in the Lord is OUR strength!!!

So really, I have nothing to worry about. :)

I GRADUATED!!! :)

Cum laude :)




Thank you Lord so much for everything! :)

Blah!

Spent the whole day applying for jobs online. What a lame life I have. =/ Surely, this wouldn't happen if I was in my comfort zone--Manila.

Supposed to go out with friends tonight and watch a movie but then it was canceled because one of my friends was let go from her job. Good grief America!! What have you become into?!?!?!?! You're no longer the country of milk and honey!! Geez!!

Would rather vanish.

Well there's nothing to blog about except that I'm still living in my suitcases and boxes. Crashing and hopping from one of my aunt's to another. Still unemployed. Still single. How miserable and horrifying my life is turning out to be. I can't do anything. All I have to do is wait. Crying won't solve it. And it seems like all the bad luck in the world has come and rested on me. I am so frustrated and most of the time, I tend to give up and call my dad and tell him that I have every attention to give it all up!! Of course, he assures me that everything will be alright in due time. I'm kinda having a hard time to believe that honestly. I think, THIS isn't for me. As much as many others want it, I think I'm this close into trading and leave this all behind.

On April 24, I gonna graduate. Another thing I'm depressed about. Since I am here and I took college in the Philippines, I won't be able to attend my very own graduation. The very one thing that would mark that your formal schooling is done and the very one thing that would only happen to you ONCE.

Why must these all things happen to me? I have had enough. :( I'm looking at myself, and sinking in the thought that I will never be good enough for anybody, that I'm a late bloomer, and that I'm worthless and useless. I hate this feeling. I guess the only thing that can make me smile right now is this quote I got from a text message:

"God can live anywhere in the universe and he chose your heart. Face it friend! He's crazy about you!" --Max Lucado

Bound for Texas

So today when I woke up I get a long distance call from my dad in the Philippines. I told him I want to go home! I can't bear the depression here. I think I need anti-depressant pills. seriously. I cry everyday.

Now, to my surprise, my mom and I will be going to Texas to visit my aunt and uncle! I'm excited! I've never been to Texas. So, I hope I get to meet Chace Crawford look-alikes! lol seriously

DEPRESSED

So, I've been moving and living in boxes and luggages. Finding my worth in this land. I'm about to give up because I feel useless and worthless. I need a job. A real one. Or else I;ll just beg my parents to have me go to college again. What a loser. ugh. I dont know what I want in this world.

A lot has happened.

LOST

I HAVE NO INTERNET IN THE PLACE I AM CURRENTLY STAYING AT! :(
That's why I haven't been updating =/
I'm on the job hunt and is depressing because I feel useless and no employer called yet.
I cried my heart out 2 nights ago and my mom comforted me.
I am happy however with the fact that I get to go to church again. I love Liberty. :)
Keeping the faith.